Tough agenda and...

It's August 10th, and the countdown to IC has started...

I've got a lot of work to do for preparation, and I can't wait to start. I must finish the current financial documents and submit them to the accountant. Hmm, I think documents have always been the most boring part of finance...phew, operational work ;))) Imagine a number of expense orders: more than 100! Wow, quite a lot, isn't it?

But the good thing is that now I can enter all the data in an expense order even in my dream :-D

Soo, the time has come to go to the accountant - I'm sure she'll appreciate my correct and clear document procession. I'm the best, I know it, don't need to tell me ;o

The biggest challenge of all

What's the biggest challenge of all?
Climb the highest mountain? Dive into the deepest waters?

No.

The biggest challenge is to overcome your fears and drawbacks by facing them straightly.

The answers are always simple, you just have to find the right questions. And that's the hardest task of all. Keep searching.

Quotation of the day:

Don't let go of your dreams. If you have determination and belief in your dreams, you will succeed in spite of your desire to let go.

Catherine Pulsifer

What a day! I overslept and arrived at the office 40 minutes late!!! Oh, God! I've been so tired recently. I wish I could go away from civilization for a couple of days. I was planning to go to Vitosha this weekend, but plans changed.

I want to "charge my batteries" and I'm wondering what's the best way to do it without neglecting my responsibilities? I want to do something with is good both for the body and the MIND. For several years I've been thinking about going to Yoga classes. Simple fitness training won't do the work, I think the surrounding of equipment and technichs isn't good for the eye, thus for the mind. All I need is a strong will and some research about Yoga classes - things like time, place, etc. which are convenient for me.

I guess this is the best option from many others. In this way I'll make up for the lost time for myself. Time for myself? Yes - of course time for oneself includes all your life, but what I mean is time for reflection on some things which I'd rather not share and keep for myself only.

So, it will be Yoga classes. Surprisingly, I'm listening to DM's "Enjoy The Silence" - somehow part of the concept of the song applies to the context of this posting. (Wow, isn't it getting complicated?:) )

Don't Worry, Be Happy! :)

...
In every life we have some trouble
But when you worry you make it double
Don't worry, be happy.
Don't worry, be happy now.
...
*(Look at me -- I'm happy.
Don't worry, be happy.
Here I give you my phone number.
When you worry, call me, I make you happy.
Don't worry, be happy.)
...
Don't worry, be happy.
'Cause when you worry your face will frown
And that will bring everybody down
...
Put a smile on your face. Don't bring everybody down.
Don't worry. It will soon pass, whatever it is.

Bobby McFerrin - "Don't Worry, Be Happy"

Mel Gibson case - much ado about nothing

Surprisingly, as I was surfing through the Technorati website, I found out with amazement that the most popular tag was "Mel Gibson" I wondered why? The next ones were "Lebanon", "Israel", and so on. It turned out that he's been drunk and shouting anti-semitic words. Well, sometimes I wonder whether this issue is overexposed. I'm definitely not saying that people should call Jews names, etc. and show their intollerance. But there are double standards. While such ridiculous cases (as the person in question had been drunk) condemn anti-semitism, other people (probably the same people that condemn the first cases) repeatedly talk against "terrorist" arabs, sizing them equally. So it's justified to have racial discrimination, religious discrimination except from Jewish people? There should be equal standards of treatment to everyone. No exceptions.

How could they?

Oh, God.
Your creation is doing massacres, showing no mercy.
While I was enjoying the great company of 10 people from AIESEC, drinking beer, laughing, playing a funny game... at another place on the Earth people suffered again. And some of them lost the opportunity their lives to end peacefully... The next in a row of massacre air strikes 60 people were killed in their sleep by the Israeli air force... There's no excuse for this act. Even if Hisbullah were hiding there, should the saying be repeated: an eye for an eye???

"...
A kitten mewed as it scampered over the ruins of its dead owner's home. On a patch of land beside the house, tobacco leaves threaded on wires dried to a wrinkled brown in the sun. Beside the partially demolished house was a deep crater, a familiar sight in South Lebanon, where hundreds of buildings have been flattened by powerful aerial bombs.
..."
copyright of Nicholas Blanford, specially for Daily Star, July 31st 2006
http://www.dailystar.com.lb/article.asp?edition_id=1&categ_id=2&article_id=74379


People of Lebanon, you feel that the world has forgotten you and is doing nothing to help you while your beautiful country is being destroyed. The officials of states might not do what they have to, but ordinary people like me haven't stopped thinking about how you feel now and pray that this injustice stops as soon as possible...

Silent moment - enjoying the sounds.

Today, while I was waiting for my precious bus No.9 after being in the MC office, I was listening to some music on my CD player. It was Bob Marley this time. Normally, I always listen to music and don't want to hear what's going on around me. But this time it was different. I just looked around me and stopped the player for a while.
The city is quiet. People pass by. The trees in front moving in the directions the wind was blowing silently. A bus stopping. Some people get in, after that the noise of the ticket perforators inside. Click! The mechanism making the bus doors close and the specific sound is heard. A plane landing passes over. Laughters behind me. In the other direction - someone already going in the distance is explaining something to someone else...

It was a magic moment. A moment of silence and yet - of sounds. The sounds of silence :) If these are the sounds of silence, then I love it.

Funny dough

My grandmother always prepares something delicious for me before I leave to Sofia. :) This time it was pizza. She prepares the dough and puts it in the fridge. so the last time she made pizza was last Sunday. My father opened the fridge and saw what? The dough not only grown in volume (as it has to be) but the bylon bag almost torn by it and a huge closed space with air between the dough and the bag. It looked as if it was going to explode :)

Sometimes life is like a flow. Not that it has a beginning and definitely an end. Most of all, it's like a river flowing faster and faster.You have no time to turn back and if you turn, the only thing you'll realize is that you're going farther and farther, and the distance between you and the place you've started the journey is getting bigger.

Every person has got a separate karma, thus the flow is going faster with some people, and with others - more slowly. One cannot choose a life and the speed of the flow. Through all their lives, some people dream of a flow that goes much faster than it is, and others - for a much slower flow. The strength of will could be enough at some point. But from then on... just useless tries.

Just go with the flow. Don't make too much efforts to change. You're just fine like that. People say ignorance is bliss. I don't know whether that's right or not, but it sounds nice...sometimes. Who said never to stop asking questions? I'd add "questions about yourself". What's the point? It's just a materialistic world, a world which makes the flow run much faster than the normal speed. And how can one return to their true self when we're always dependent on that surrounding world? We're a part of it. Unless everyone decide upon this, it's useless to try.

Then what's the point in following that direction of the flow? What can be the solution? You should change the direction. Definitely. Somehow. Someday. It's like fighting with yourself. You'll be both a winner and a loser. Then what will be the final result? Here maths can't be applied. The cost of what you lose could be higher than the gain from the winner prize.

Hmm..another reminder. Which turns me back to the real world...

What's the Purpose?

Is it enlightenment? Or the so-called state "Nirvana"? And why do I always reach such conclusions late after midnight while listening to Depeche Mode? (By the way, nice track - "Nothing's Impossible" from their latest album - "Playing The Angel")
And if I can choose what to believe in, I believe in this one above. People have never stopped asking themselves what their purpose of being is.
Or if I have to refer to my latest post with the lyrics of "I Don't Know" - we can't be certain...

But why not? Or as the editors of the website about wave structure of matter write, there's only one ultimate truth. Out there. Then how can one be sure?
That's why I believe in the power of science. It can prove everything, but only if it finds the true path, the true clues... and that's the purpose of science.

As to purpose of life, I don't know...Who does know???
And yet, that's the worthiest quest. What else should we be living for? Making money? Spending them on luxurious goods??? I doubt.

Funny, some people make money in order to live, but others live in order to make money...

Full stop.