Friday, December 01, 2006

About forgetting and forgiving and one commemoration

Does mind really have the ability to forget? If it doesn't, then if forgiveness should be given after one "forgets", ...there's should't be forgiveness at all! But yet, it exists - otherwise the word would have been useless and thus it would have been forgotten. But if we assume that there is no such thing as "forget", then the word "forgive" sould be remembered, not forgotten.
A week ago, on the 24th of November, the world commemorated Freddie Mercury, the frontman of Queen, who died from AIDS in 1991. Several years ago in late November I was sleeping in my bed. It was just about time for my alarm clock to ring when I started dreaming. I saw myself as a close friend of Freddie, I was staying beside him, while he was suffering, I was suffering with him. Then I suddenly woke up and in my dizziness, the first thing I did un(sub?)consciously was to check what the date was. Neither had I any idea what date it was, nor I remembered what had happened on that day in 1991. I saw it was the 24th of November. Then, still sleepy, I understood. And I was shocked.
From time to time I remind myself of this dream. It is my proof that nothing is completely lost and forgotten, that subconsciously a person always remembers. So yes - if everything is stored somewhere in your brain, "backed up" in a shady corner, then nobody forgives. If you say "I forgive you", you might think you really mean it, but as lng as you still remember, there will always be "that something" to remind you of the old times.
But nothing in this world is simple, nor it is complicated, just complex. The very widespread hypothesis that we use a tiny part of our brain, might be true. Even I can't tell what will come next to my mind in probably a month. This is not inconsistency, this is just the normal path of life.
Inequality exists only in people's minds. Equations could be found everywhere in the Universe, otherwise everthing would have been blown away already. Like any other creature or just thing which exists, human beings try to get away from this inequality and turn to the equation. We never stop doing it - as proved above, we never forget, subconsiously.
One of the basic equations, used also as a basic principle in accounting:
Asset = Liability + Asset (Y amount) - Liability(Y amount)
In accounting its existence is verified annually. In life this check is done every moment.

Boa noite.

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