The other me

I'm so fed up with all the people who have their own egoistic goals and keep using others to achieve them. I'm so fed up with the ones who are the masters of hypocrisy and think they're always in control of the situation. Or simply manipulate it.
I can be as evil as I am good. Or even more. For being evil it doesn't take as much effort as being good. If I go angry, my anger knows no limits.
The ones who think they can always play games with me have been reckoning without their host. I find it really entertaining to take part in this game.

I'm back

It's been a long time. Now I'm back. For now.
My summer leave finishes today. Tomorrow is D-Day. I'm starting something new at work and I feel so puzzled. I know what I have to do, but I also know that it's always been difficult for me to do what needs to be done.
My state exam is also approaching. I'm almost a graduated bachelor of UNWE. I only need to overcome the typical attitude of rejecting something which is obligatory and doing it only when something else is obligatory instead of the latter.
I'm about to make a decision which might change my life. In both cases it will. I'm so scared. But I have to. This time without anyone interfering with advice.

I was watching old photos recently and it felt really strange - as if I was looking at the memories of someone else's life. It's so distant. Oh, God, why did things change so dramatically? I didn't even have the time to realize it.
As if there always should be something to bother me and prevent me from having a normal life (or the life I want to live, not the one I have).
I know what I need to do. I only need to have several things sorted out. Sorted by priority.