I'm back

It's been a long time. Now I'm back. For now.
My summer leave finishes today. Tomorrow is D-Day. I'm starting something new at work and I feel so puzzled. I know what I have to do, but I also know that it's always been difficult for me to do what needs to be done.
My state exam is also approaching. I'm almost a graduated bachelor of UNWE. I only need to overcome the typical attitude of rejecting something which is obligatory and doing it only when something else is obligatory instead of the latter.
I'm about to make a decision which might change my life. In both cases it will. I'm so scared. But I have to. This time without anyone interfering with advice.

I was watching old photos recently and it felt really strange - as if I was looking at the memories of someone else's life. It's so distant. Oh, God, why did things change so dramatically? I didn't even have the time to realize it.
As if there always should be something to bother me and prevent me from having a normal life (or the life I want to live, not the one I have).
I know what I need to do. I only need to have several things sorted out. Sorted by priority.