Went the horse into the river :)))

Butt head erases. Гъз глава затрива.

As if captured from the woods. Като хванат от гората.

Has finished her with his feet. Свършил я е с краката си.

They have left their hands. Оставили са си ръцете.

Thousands of graces! Хиляди благодарности!

Health be it... Здраве да е...

Happy new bath! Честита баня!

Plaсх as string beans. Просто като фасул.

Who the what does, to himself it does. Кой каквото прави, на себе си го
прави.

Once when you have caught yourself on the dance... Веднъж като си се хванал на хорото...

From nice nicer. От хубаво по-хубаво.

From bad worse. От лошо по-лошо.

I will be pulling your ears. Ще ти дърпам ушите.

Greetings, greetings, gimme cash for pastry! Здрасти, здрасти, дай пари за пасти!

Where you... Kъде ти...

Poor as a chapel mouse. Poor as an ecclesiastic mouse. Беден като църковна мишка.

Beaming like jellified meat. Ухилен като пача.

Like unhanged. Като откачен.

Let's go now! Айде, сега!

Neither news, nor bone. Ни вест, ни кост.

And does a little ship swim? А корабче плува ли?

Became she what she became. Стана тя каквато стана.

He neither ate onion nor smelled it. Ни лук ял, ни лук мирисал.

On evil pear tree - evil pole. На зла круша - зъл прът.

A happening will happen to you. Ще ти се случи случка.

Went the horse into the river. Ойде коньо у реката.

Upper Tracian Lowlander. Горнотракиец.

Drunk - paid. Пито - платено.

Hood after the rain. След дъжд качулка.

He isn't mad who eats the pie but he who gives it to him. Не е луд тоя,
дето яде баницата...

To sell cucumbers to a cucumber vendor. На краставичар краставици да продава.

Put the priest in bondage to be peaceful your village. Вържи попа да ти е
мирно селото./ Tie up the pope to pacify the village.

Measure thrice, cut once. Три пъти мери, един път режи.

Drop after drop - a reservoir is formed. Капка по капка - вир става.

Cat licks socket: tsuck, tsuck, Alas! Котка ближе контакта: цък, цък, Язък!

Horse's slimes with garlic. (Equine saliva with garlic.) Конски лиги с
чесън.

Dish with grapes. Манджа с грозде.

Intellect governs, intellect serves, intellect pastures ducks. Ум царува, ум
робува, ум патки пасе.

Risk wins, risk loses, risk pastures ducks. Риск печели, риск губи, риск
патки пасе.

Your granny's thornies. Бабините ти трънкини.

First wire for water. Първа жичка за водичка.

Bubbled not boiled. Bubbly-no-boilies. Врели-некипели.

Who sings evil does not think. Който пее зло не мисли.

If you had sat peacefully you would not have seen miracle. Да бе мирно
седяло не би чудо видяло.

A straight way, crooked path to you. Прав ти път, крива ти пътека.

Dog jumps according to the stick. Кучето скача според тоягата.

Each frog to know her bog. Всяка жаба да си знае гьола.

The little pear had a tail. (The light bulb had a tail.) Крушката си
имала и опашка.

The pear does not fall away from the tree.

Rolled the pot and found its cover. Търкулнало се гърнето и си намерило
похлупака.

Me to have your wits / problems / luck. Да ти имам акъла/ проблемите/
късмета.

Spoken word, thrown stone. Казана дума, хвърлен камък.

Look out into the picture./ Be careful in the picture. Внимавай в картинката.

Until under the garbled pear tree. До под кривата круша.

Now if I only had a shpeque... Сега да имах един шпек...

To tie him a tin can. Да му вържеш тенекия.

To twist him a number. Да му извъртиш номер.

Every madman with his trick / number. Всеки луд с номера си.

A palm-stretch man, elbow beard. Педя-човек, лакът-брада.

In the coockoo's summer. На кукуво лято.

When the moccasins blossom. Когато цъфнат налъмите.

You will blossom and you will tie. Ще цъфнеш и ще вържеш.

The rapid bitch blind bears them. Бързата кучка слепи ги ражда.

Tight comradeship mountain elevates. Сговорна дружина планина повдига.

Who digs grave to another alone falls in it. Който копае гроб другиму сам
пада в него.

Keeps silence like a fish. Мълчи като риба.

Don't call "bear" not to come. Не викай "мецо" да не дойде.

From the drunk even the madman runs away. От пияния и лудият бяга.

Finished her like the dog in the field. Свърши я като кучето на нивата.

The vineyard does not want a prayer, wants a mattock. Лозето не иска
молитва, а мотика.

The dogs bark to themselves, the caravan is going. Кучетата си лаят,
керванът си върви.

No one is bigger than the bread. Никой не е по-голям от хляба.

In the end of the ends. В края на краищата.

Naked water. Гола вода.

Uncle's red-headed pumpkins. Чичковите червенотиквеничковчета.

Neither fish nor crab/ lobster/ cancer. Ни риба, ни рак.

Quiet waters are the deepest. Тихите води са най-дълбоки.

On bare ass (belly) a pair of pistols. На гол гъз (тумбак) чифте пищови.

To throw egg-whites (albumins, proteins). Хвърлям белтъци.

For the wolf we're talking and he is in the pen. За вълка говорим, а той е в
кошарата.

The wolf is stuffed and the lamb is whole. И вълкът - сит, и агнето - цяло.

Food makes wrestling/ fight. 'Ранътъ пра'и борбътъ.

Eagle, crab and pike. Орел, рак и щука.

For him who blows. За тоя, дето духа.

For him who swings the forest. За тоя, дето клати гората.

On every hair times 108. На всеки косъм по сто и осем.

Like an ass/ a donkey on a bridge. Като магаре на мост.

Like an elephant in a glassware shop. Като слон в стъкларски магазин.

Like a calf in a train. Like a dog in a cart. Като теле в железница. Като
куче в каруца.

On the ant a road costs. На мравката път стува.

Bent sits, straight reasons. Криво седи, право съди.

Heptene. Хептен.

With a cloak in the summer, with a purse in the winter. Лете със абичка,
зиме със торбичка.

Strike the saddle the donkey to remember. Бий самара да се сеща магарето.

Many grannies, feeble child. Много баби - хилаво дете.

Complete sorrow. Пълна скръб.

Which watch? How much is the hour? Колко е часът?

From me to pass. Oт мене да мине.

Help yourself God to help you too. Помогни си сам, за да ти помогне и
Господ.

These are flowers, there will be fruit too. (Russian proverb) Это цветочки,
а еще и ягодки будут.

One cold water. Една студена вода.

Under the road and over the road. Под път и над път.

Ears don't stand higher than the eyes. Ушите не стоят по-горе от очите.

For green roe/ caviar. За зелен хайвер.

To see where the crabs hybernate. Да види къде зимуват раците.

House on fire to burn the rats. Запали къщата да изгори мишките.

The oily/ kind word all portals/ doors opens. Благата дума всички врати отваря.

Patience, horse, for green grass. Трай, коньо, за зелена трева.

The turkey meditated, meditated, and drowned into the river. Пуйката
мислила, мислила и се удавила в реката.

Two water-mellons under one armpit. Две дини под една мишница.

Sick healthy carries. Болен здрав носи.

To plant him on duck's eggs. Да го насадиш на пачи яйца.

The how much - that much. Колкото - толкова.

Water stamps - thirsty walks. Вода гази - жаден ходи.

White coins for black days. Бели пари за черни дни.

He who studies will succeed. Който учи ще сполучи.

Uncensured gesture of 3 fingers with a dominating middle one. Неприличен
жест от три пъста с преобладаващ среден.

Piper house does not feed. Свирач къща не храни.

Some (random) thoughts about time and deja vu's

Do you never get bored of waiting? Have you ever had the feeling that for some things time runs fast and for others - doesn't?
Have you ever had the feeling that you're having a deja vu? I bet you have, but no one has such as mine.

I want time to run faster. And at the same time - to stop.
I want to have it all sorted out. I want answers. I can't wait. I'm bored of waiting.
I'm sick of having deja vu's, of creating them.

Perhaps it's my perception of fast and slow and the meaning I put behind two different things that make me feel that all reasons for this perception are external. Perhaps it's my subconsciousness that creates the deja vu's.

If that's so, then it's me who has all the power. I'm powerful and yet I feel so powerless...

ordinary thoughts

falling
dreaming
wondering
and crying
and standing
flying somewhere
exhausted
and left behind
hoping
and desperate altogether
passionate inside
but cold
...
visions
imaginary
glittering
...
waking up... and falling asleep
reality rejecting
and feeling queer
and being ordinary
and being happy
and confused as well
...
a crossroad
a mirror image of the past
a way to choose
a way to lose
someday, one day
it will be clear
...

Welcome to the OLD/NEW blog!!!

As I've already written on Facebook, I've swtiched the server I'm publishing my blog on.
The old one I was using enabled me to post with the adress *.myaiesec.net but due to some recent and forthcoming changes of the AIESEC online platform, I decided to permanently move to *.blogspot.com.
Anyways, I guess you don't care much about such detailed explanations, so:
from now on you can find me on http://tsvetana.blogspot.com/
I hope you'll continue visiting my blog!
See you! :)

repetition...

Is this real?
Am I really doing this? Am I dreaming or not?
Why did I let myself go this far when I know that such dreams are not a part of the real world?
Why do I persist dreaming? While I know that these dreams have brought me to nowhere in the past. They'll do it again if I persist.
Then why do I keep doing this? Of course I know why...
...and you know you have to stop... You must...

Internet connection misfortunes

I am pissed off by the internet connection problem I've been having since last Wednesday. I have explained all things in chronological order so many times that I'm very tired to explain them now here.
I still can't find the reason: sometimes I have internet, sometimes I don't. Sometimes when I should have I don't and, moreover, I have two LAN connections active. Which is impossible because both have exactly the same options.
I'm so pissed off... This problem makes me feel so insecure about all the information stored on my laptop...some kind of a reminder of the problems with my old PC...:(
One positive effect is that now I can spend more time on my preparation for the state exam. I guess that's enough for the pros.

If only...

The previous post in photos only.

The garden I was sitting in









The bench under the green umbrella (far left)












Aula Maxima. Big conference room. Small conference room










The first floor

The main corpus, front. Prof. Bobchev's monument. The "Tomorrow ours the world becomes" slogan













The ex-parking









A typical fast-food









A typical street









Fruits will be sold here after September 24th. I'll be there!

Business centre, bar, supermarket, pharmacy or...everything altogether?

September 17th, opening of the university year

Right now I'm having the strangest way of relaxing I've ever chosen. After a long afternoon spent with the administration at the UNWE, I'm having a nice rest in the inner garden of the university, sitting on a bench and typing this post on my laptop.
So many things have changed here for a year, and what about 4 years.
At the same time 4 years ago I was just starting my preparation for the university (at that time we were starting the year two weeks later than now. I was checking what the membership conditions for joining AIESEC were, some decorations of the flat I'm living in were done. That's what I only remember.
And now, four years later, I can hardly recognize this place. So many things have changed regarding the surroundings.
Studentski grad has become a much more crowded place. I see the first UNWE dorms block being renovated. I see more cars. I see more people. Most of all: I see more construction sites and less green areas.
I see difference at the university. Everything is renovated. The halls are shiny. During winter it isn't cold and one can't feel the wind blowing inside the rooms through the broken window-frames. The brand new online information system for students at the university is a new hit. Even the old-fashioned administration personnel is getting used to uploading more recent information on the website.
Yes, many things have changed: for good or bad. But behind the mask has anything changed at all?
Have people connected with the system become more polite that before?
Has the corruption, so typical for Bulgarian universities in general, been removed?
Have professors started paying more attention to state-of-the-art theories and practice?
I shall not answer the upper questions.

Global warming: how one can make a difference

I've joined the cause "Stop Global Warming" on Facebook
but I haven't thought of what I'm doing to stop it. It may sound silly that one can make a difference. It most probably is silly to think that a huge difference can be made. But who cares? I can do something. And who knows, maybe someone else randomly reading this post might get impressed and start doing it also and... the effect might be multiplied.

So, let's see what can be done in general and what I can at least do:

At home

Me: 7, 9 (recycling in general), 10 (walking, less taxis)

At work

Me: 1, 3, 4

Outdoors

Me: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5

Some options are not applicable, others - not currently able to do. But anyways, I do make a difference, don't I?

Today in photos

I'm in a leave for my exam studies, but today the weather was too good to stay at home over the books. So I went for a walk outside: to buy sports shoes and enjoy the good weather.

The day in photos:

It's 15th of September, the start of the school year, so all over the city there are various events in the afternoon. Something like: dear student, from tomorrow on you start school, it will be very, very tough, but relax - today is the last day of fun.
I passed by one of the events: a concert with the slogan "Support you school" - maybe a competition which school would collect the most points. Participants from the Music Idol sang at the show. Grown-ups were either waiting for their children around or were just passing by and joking about the enthusiasm of the students.











While children were having fun and adults were having fun when watching them, other adults were not having fun. Just few hundred meters from the venue definitely not few adults were forming a traffic jam. The cross of Raovski str. and Tsar Osvoboditel blvd. has always been a potential traffic jam place but since part of it was closed because of the metro construction, all potential has been fully realized. While I was crossing the street, a song came to my mind: Relax, take it e-ee-a-sy... :-D









The third time I see an arrow hanging from a wire somewhere in Sofia. The first was "City", the second "Chop" (one side) and "Shop" (the other). The third one: simply "Soft", the other side - drawings. So, is it SOFT out there?












Benches normally are always single. So rare to see a couple. At the back of the National Library.












Cats like sleeping on high places. This one didn't make an exception. I presume that place was a famous cat hotel because there was another cat sleeping on the other part of the fence. What a classical photo composition. :)))












And, finally, after a loooong walk (3 hours in total) I returned home. With the long-desired shoes. In fact, this photo should have been in first place because I first bought the shoes and then went for the big walk and took the other photos. But the order of photos is chronological based on their taking rather than the occurrence of events during the day. And the shoes: CONVERSE, yeah! :)

Self-control

Do I control myself better? Today was the day of anger. Apparently some people at UNWE think they are gods and poor students should listen and obey. Obviously they treat people in the most unfriendly and prejudices way they can.
Did it make me angry? Yes, I was enraged.
But it lasted much shorter than previous times.
I don't even call it control. I call it pity. For them.
And for me: there's good in every bad situation.

Private investigation

Is it true that unsolved issues turn into big snowballs with time?

Google returns "48 700 за unsolved+issue+snowball+time" for 0.22 seconds only!
The first result is:
You can carry maximum of 3 snowballs at time unless you find ballbag ... There are unsolved issues with bot pathfinding-system, so bots will get stuck. ...
snowwar.hlgaming.com/?page=2 - 11k

1. It's true. If I tell to my consciousness: solve the unsolved issues because with time they'll turn into huge snowballs and fall over you, then who will tell it to my subconsciousness?
2. It's not true. Correlation problem? a) Time doesn't affect the transformation into a snowball => snowballs can get formed even in the beginning. b) Snowballs are something too relative when trying to define the dimensions (different people - different measurement) => one cannot tell with certainty that an unsolved issue is a big one or not. c) There is no correlation between unsolved issues and snowballs at all so no matter how long it takes, the correlation is 0 (because unsolved issues are simply unsolved issues, nobody cares what will happen later on)

If go back to the lines where I've quoted Google, so then there could be 48 700 versions of a), b), c), etc.
Then why bothering? :)

This time it's random

Here I am - back in Sofia. My holiday lasted shorter than I intended. So now I'm here, trying to figure out what to do.
Now it's time for the random posts, I guess. It's always funny when I go after some time back in my posts and read all the ridiculous things I've written. I'd either not agree with what I'd written or I wouldn't agree with it.
This time I'll just make a short list of everything that has impressed me for the last few days or even weeks.

*The 180 degrees shift in the weather for the last few days. It was snowing in Germany, The Czech Republic and Serbia; the temperatures in western Bulgaria have fallen lower than 20 degrees, sometimes it's less than 10 degrees. And all these after the huge forest fires here and Greece, also in Italy, etc. Hmm, climate changes ahead. I feel so powerless to do something.
*Today I read about an entrepreneur who had notes ordered and put on every table in his restaurant with an apology to the clients for the price increase. Together with a logical explanation why the increase was needed: the prices of products had increased and by raising the prices he wanted to preserve the quality of the food served in his restaurant. Isn't it a nice flash of light through the darkness spread by the speculative actions of many like him who just raised the prices because people expected inflation and were probably ready to bare price increase of any product?
*My state exam is approaching and I don't feel like studying right now. I guess recently I've been too much involved in managing risks than evaluating them.
*I continue to believe in the connection cause-effect. The way something is done predefines the result. Or the latter was something else? Nevermind. Either ways I'll laugh afterwards :)

So, that's for now. If this one is read by someone, please forgive me for being ridiculous. I just like making people smile. :)))

The other me

I'm so fed up with all the people who have their own egoistic goals and keep using others to achieve them. I'm so fed up with the ones who are the masters of hypocrisy and think they're always in control of the situation. Or simply manipulate it.
I can be as evil as I am good. Or even more. For being evil it doesn't take as much effort as being good. If I go angry, my anger knows no limits.
The ones who think they can always play games with me have been reckoning without their host. I find it really entertaining to take part in this game.

I'm back

It's been a long time. Now I'm back. For now.
My summer leave finishes today. Tomorrow is D-Day. I'm starting something new at work and I feel so puzzled. I know what I have to do, but I also know that it's always been difficult for me to do what needs to be done.
My state exam is also approaching. I'm almost a graduated bachelor of UNWE. I only need to overcome the typical attitude of rejecting something which is obligatory and doing it only when something else is obligatory instead of the latter.
I'm about to make a decision which might change my life. In both cases it will. I'm so scared. But I have to. This time without anyone interfering with advice.

I was watching old photos recently and it felt really strange - as if I was looking at the memories of someone else's life. It's so distant. Oh, God, why did things change so dramatically? I didn't even have the time to realize it.
As if there always should be something to bother me and prevent me from having a normal life (or the life I want to live, not the one I have).
I know what I need to do. I only need to have several things sorted out. Sorted by priority.

Outraged

Rage is a very soft word to describe my feelings right now. Apparently, words like friendship not always apply to human relations with their most common meaning. If friendship means turning one's back to a friend in times of need, then I am completely desperate.
Why, oh why INTEREST is the driver for someone's friendly intentions??? And they don't help friends in need when they don't have an interest.
Pity for them and their interest.

It's a sad world.

Blogging: the real truth

Feeling bored? Start blogging. You'll never get bored. You'll waste your time on whatever you want, whenever you want to.
Now, let me make an account of all blogs and bloglets I own or contribute to...
-> this one, of course http://tsvetana.myaiesec.net
-> the first blog - on MSN http://tsveti2dreamon.spaces.live.com
-> the blog in Bulgarian on Wordpress http://tsvetana.wordpress.com
-> the funny try which didn't work out http://curioustsveti.blogspot.com
-> Balkanizer - contributor only http://blogs.tol.org/balkans
-> CEE - The Puzzle - a contributor to-be http://blogs.tol.org/puzzle
-> the hidden beauty of the Bulgarian capital http://hiddensofia.blogspot.com

Am I too overexcited about blogs? Perhaps yes, it takes too much time even to think what to blog about and WHERE the hell. At the same time it becomes more and more difficult to balance with all these things I'm doing or I'm about to start doing.

Why do we need blogs? It's so annoying sometimes when you feel that your postings are one of those sophisticated, analytical and emotional diaries which have flooded the internet world. Moaning stories, roaming stories, stories without a clear purpose, ones with no beginning, others with no end - why, why???

Repetition, repetition, repetition. As if you're listening to a broken gramophone record. Recently I read a posting about the purposeless blogs and their authors. Well, leaving my beliefs in relativity of truth aside, there's definitely something true. If you have no inspiration, your blog is crap. Haha, it's probably true also that the way a blog is written reflects the personality of its owner - I mean in real life. The latter is a long story with many examples and I don't want to waste my brain, my finger muscles, the electricity, and - of course - my time, on long sentences without any significant meaning.

I just want to do it as always: with passion and inspiration. ;-)

They made it!!!

They've just made it!

Stoyan and Elitsa qualified for the Final of Eurovision 2007! It's so awesome that our song was appreciated well enough by people from the rest of Europe!

I'm so happy! :)

Good luck, Elitsa and Stoyan! Good luck, Bulgaria! :)

Go, Elitsa and Stoyan!

Reflection moments disappear with time...

Sometimes I sit and think. Sometimes I sit and just try to think. Thoughts and concentration of thoughts on one specific topic sometimes is a problem. Especially after midnight, no one here, chill out music... simply another world.
In such cases I just sit and my thoughts flow like a stream: faste and faster down the slope and don't know which direction might take. Might bump into a rock, might change its direction, but wouldn't stop.
Such moments are very precious for me. They make me feel sometimes I get a bit closer to another level...
Sadly, they happen less and less frequently nowadays. It's just that rushing everyday life which makes me get stuck into the trivial. I feel this happens with many people nowadays. The more time passes, the closer we get to a street with no crossroads. We just see what's in front of us, but nothing on the periphery.
I've had the opportunities to sit and relax, and contemplate... but I would simply forget about it.
As time passes by, life gets dull, materialistic, we become narrow-minded and prejudiced about anything spiritual, or simply anything "inner". Reflection becomes a dirty word, a synonim of childishness and idealism. Time is money, idealism doesn't bring any money, so the return on investment of time is negative...
The connections between certain nerves of my brain are lost and now I hardly remember any of these moments. I even hardly remember to say STOP and sit for a while.

There's still hope though. I haven't stopped having recalls of the past: of my dreams and beliefs. It's so purifying... Like a new dawn defeating the dark shadows of the night.

Magnificent Vitosha

My small trip to Vitosha on Sunday was really amazing! I joined a small group of friends for a climbing the mountain.
The plan for the day went through three phases.
The original plan included climbing the highest peak of Vitosha - Cherni Vrah. Well, we soon gave up this plan because there's still snow in the highest parts of the mountain.
Version 2.0: reaching by bus the Simeonivo ski lift and from then a passage to the Golden bridges (the Moreni). Then - either bus back to Sofia or walking to Vladaya and then again bus. It didn't work out.
The final one appeared to be the best for our current level of fitness for such passages. Bus from Darvenitsa to Jeleznitsa village, then climbing for about 30 minutes to a valley with wooden tables and benches, then setting a fire, eating and drinking, playing cards and finally: going back home.
It wasn't the best example of mountaineering, but yet I liked it very much because of the company and the views.

More photos here and here

Goal and reality

When there's a feeling of huge distance between one's goals and one's capacity to achieve them, they strive to find the way to minimize this distance.
Every day, my first thought after I wake up shall be: Everything's possible as long as you know how to get it.

It goes, all goes, time has no shore and drags us, there's no other way...

Boredome and other funny stuff

Where did this boredome come from? I haven't invited it! I'm 100% sure!!! Well, it's almost certain that clocks don't get bored of repeating one and the same procedure each 24 hours.
Nevermind the machines, I'm not a machine. Therefore I decided to join a small group of friends and to climb Cherni vrah! It will be pretty soon - hopefully this Saturday!!!
That's what I call real fun! :) Vitosha, here I come! :-D

Inch by inch...

So what if everytime we hear something like that it's only on words? What if we hear the words but don't get the meaning? What if our souls are not able anymore to feel the truth?
What does "winners or losers" mean without the internal motivation for winning? And is there motivation without understanding the real purpose of victory?
How can we even visualize what it would be in the end of our lives in order to decide what exactly real living is?

No need to mention the questions require a lot of time to answer...

Inspiration by Steve Jobs

I found it by accident, is it is said. Existence of accidents is doubtful, but that's not the topic here.
It's a kind of the powerful speeches I used to hear not so long time ago and which I really miss now. Yes, passionate people can be found everywhere.
It could be questionable whether his stories were true or not. But yet it's food for thought.
Thank you, Steve!

My new blog

It's about everything I find interesting in a specific moment.
Why I started another blog? Because I want to post about various areas of topics. While my current blog is more about me and my perceptions of the world around me (or at least mostly about it), I want to post about other stuff as well. So new areas - new blog. Otherwise - loss of focus ;)))

So, no more words, here is the link

Perception of Right and Wrong

What would you do if you were me? What would you do if you knew what I knew and didn't know the things I don't know either.
I've got a unique learning path to walk on.
Don't judge me for what is right and what is wrong because your point of view is different.
If I could make one thing come true that would be to make everyone who think they know me to really KNOW me, or to know the REAL me.
I always want to make sure everything is clear, to have no secrets from anyone and to follow certain common priciples or rules, etc. What I'm not feeling confident enough about I judge on the pre-defined rules. I don't like breaking the rules even if in that way I may hurt people. If I can't define the future consequences of a risk I might take, I just don't take it. Maybe next time when I have some historical data I could make up my mind and be more people-oriented than rules-oriented.

People have different perceptions of what is right and what is wrong. Who am I?

I am what I am. This is what Hodja was writing on the top of each sheet of paper whenever he started describing memories of his past - in the book "The White Citadel" by Orhan Pamuk.
Who am I? I am an elephant. If you don't know what this means, I'll tell you. This is a person who always tries to follow the rules, likes everything to be made clear to everyone. Such people are very strict, punctual, analytical.
The question is why? Why more rule-oriented than people-oriented. Clashes between me and other types of people arise when the other people are more "people-oriented".
I have asked myself this question: what is the initial purpose for me to try to follow the rules and not to break them. If I raise this question on general level: why do "elephants" obey certain perscribed principles instead of following their common sense, it might prove helpful...if there are any elephants here at all.
So, the answer may be found by finding the real purpose for this obedience. I don't want to fall into thoughts about what has triggerred it, but rather than what it aims to.
Rules or principles in a perfect situation are used to help people make decisions. They are the BASIS which aims to reach the balance between different perspectives. They only help people understand this BASIS, in their perfect form they provide only this basis, nothing more, nothing less. So elephant types are following the rules to find the golden mean which points the balance between different interests and perspectives. If elephants are considered not to think about people, then it's a wrong perception of the others who don't understand them. It's exactly because of the people why elephants follow the rules. They want the basis to be clear, and on this clear basis clear relationships are built.
But sice the human mind and therefore human relations are a complex labyrinth, it takes a lot of time and sometimes time is never enough to understand the motives behind certain actions. What really makes us humans is the fact that we always will strive for finding the cause and effect. This is what really makes the difference. The level and complextity of this human ability also defines in a certain way the stage of personal development of each individual.

Brain efforts

Human brain is something quite interesting, especially its reactions when it's overloaded with lots of different types of information which it cannot process simultaneously. One tries to push it to its limits in the ordinary way. And the result is far more negative than even expected.
In the very beginning you feel temporary exhaustion and a constant demand for sleep. When you move, you concentrate your energy into the movement and the brain feels more relaxed.
After some rest as if everything is back to normal, but that's only the surface. Beneath it the brain still lacks a complete rest and the exhaustion is accumulated hour by hour, day by day, week by week.
The reactions become hasty, the emotions swing from one edge to another. One day you might be full of energy and concentration, to be excited to the maximum and feel love and attachment to every lviing creature. On the other day you might fall into a deep depression, thinking that the whole world is against you.
The final phase includes all previous phases but also total lack of concentration, forgetting things and also a feeling that some real moments have actually never happenned.
That's the break-even point which marks the moment when serious measures should be taken. Like taking some days off and changing the environment. Brain loves diversity.

Quiet, still, you feel there's nothing going on until you realize the space behind your eyes is filling up with something like peace...

This is the path where I start...

I'm back from BaLDS!!!

It was awesome: even more than I expected.
First, I travelled by bus with Sevi and Megan. It was really exciting to see the mountains again: I love watching outside the window when I'm passing through the Vitiniya pass.
We arrived and met there Ira, and then the great conference moments began. One by one, people I haven't met for a long time were coming in and joining our table. It was great seeing Sve, Plami, Leni... And few minutes later everyone else at the plenary.
The only session I attended was the one with the past MCPs of AIESEC in Bulgaria. The attending MCPs in chronological order: Yanko Ignatiev (95/96), Krasimir Ivanov (97/98), Iva Hadjiyska (99/00), Pavel Panov (01/02), Konstantin Grigorov (02/03), Viktor Kehayov (03/04), Svetla Stoyanova (o5/06), the current MCP Emil Ivanov (06/07) and the MCP elect: Ivaylo Dimov (07/08).
It was really interesting to see and hear those people. What was most noticeable was the difference in way of thinking and even way of speaking of the MCPs from different moments of the past. You could see the huge difference just in two years time. The background and the external environment surrounding each one of them has left a deep mark on their characters and, of course, on their leadership style. Each one of them is really unique and I hope that the youngest members of AIESEC could feel that as well.
The single exact phrase that remained in my mind was what Yanko Ignatov said: "Never have any regrets".
I couldn't talk to any of them, but I managed to talk to many other alumni of AIESEC in Bulgaria, and also with current members I haven't seen for ages. I had a nice chat with the elected VPF of LC Svishtov...hmm,...mostly about finance. :-D It was a really pleasant surprise to see people passing by and hearing me talk about finance and smiling: "Tsveti, you haven't changed".
The official dinner included the Alumni Oscars: t-shirts given by the alumni to the members who have contributed the most to the achievements of their LCs.
The party was in the same hall where the official dinner was. You could see people with formal wear dancing AIESEC dances or chatting everywhere around. At one moment I stood and I watched, and I thought how could this be possible? We don't even pay attention that good friends work for competing companies. And remain loyal both to their company and to their friends. That's so common to see here... I'm so happy about that fact! :)
I went to sleep at 3:30, almost crawing in the corridors...not because of drinking but because of the exhaustion from the excitement. :) The next morning (today actually) I woke up late and just had enough time to say goodbye to my friends and take the bus back to Sofia.



Whoud should I say? I felt like home there. I'm on the other side now but I really have no more regrets of my past actions. I saw that my actions have triggered something positive and I truly believe that I have remained in the minds of my closest people there as a real friend.
It was the best gift I could have had for my name day! :)

More photos here:

http://picasaweb.google.co.uk/tsvetanar/BaLDS2007

Going to BaLDS!

I'm going to BaLDS (former BLDS) tomorrow! During the whole week I've had doubts whether I'll get organized and search for people who'll go but finally there's a positive answer!
It will be my first AIESEC seminar after leaving the organization and I feel quite strange. I've never thought about what it's like being "on the other side". It's really something new to me but I'll have to get used to that.

Today, six months later I see that I still keep my values no matter what new challenges I face or other mindsets I collide with. I have proven that I have the potential to make a real change in my microcommunity exactly because I have never lost my faith in good.
And because I very often fall into deep thoughts and bore people around me with my moaning, I stop here.
From now on I'll think more about the exciting moments that await me tomorrow. :)
I'll keep posting updates these days. :)

Am I preserving the environment?

YesterdayI watched Al Gore's documentary "An Inconvenient Truth". I saw and heard nothing new and yet I was bewildered by the fact that although I've always known that we have a serious environmental problem, I haven't done anything in particular to minimize the negative effect of my activities.

Do I save energy?
No. I keep my laptop turned on during the night in order to listen to the music. Can't I use the mp3 player with rechargeable batteries insted? Or simply set the laptop to be turned off in 30 minutes as in the meanwhile it's running on its battery only?
No. I leave the lights turned on in a room I'm not using at the moment. There's some improvement though - recently I've started noticing and turning it off.

Do I save water?
No. I waste water when having a shower. Can't I turn it off when I'm not under it?
No. I use loads of water for cleaning and dishwashing, also for washing clothes (which ar eonly for hand-wash). Can't I close the tap when no water is needed?

Do I separate garbage?
No. Although containers for separation of waste are already placed across the city, I don't collect the garbage separately. Is it that time and space-consuming to do it?

There are a lot more things to say and do, but I guess if I just do these simple things, I might really make a contribution.

"I've seen things you people wouldn't believe. Attack ships on fire off the
shoulder of Orion. I watched C-beams glitter in the dark near the Tannhauser
gate. All those moments will be lost in time, like tears in rain."

(Batty, "Bladerunner")

Time is never enough to cherish all moments a person has, and never will be.
Time is relative.
Time is a creation of our imagination.

Moments will return. Like the tears in rain. The tears go deep into the soil with the rain...The soil which feeds us...We grow...and other tears fall...and the cycle is closed.

About the 50th anniversary of the EU

This is what I wrote yesterday evening:

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I am sitting in front of the TV and watching the live concert from Belgium which is a part of the celebrations for the 50th anniversary of the European Union. I'm watching and I have the strange feeling that there's something wrong about it.

The idea was to show performers from all of the 27 member countries. And the fact is that for two hours only a few countries have been presented: Italy, Belgium, Germany, UK, Spain and France. I'm wondering where the diversity is.

I can understand: it's a show and there is competition. In order to win against the competitors it has to show something familiar, something easy to be "sold". So the other countries - "eaten by dogs" as we say in Bulgaria.

Is this the entertainment reflection of the economic attitude? If the market laws are viable everywhere, then I guess the answer of my question is obvious.

But probably the more important question is whether this policy should continue? Let's forget about entertainment, let's talk about geopolitics.

It's clear enough that nowadays the European Union is suffering from an illness for which a cure hasn't been invented yet. While the Union was initially established for the purposes of free trade and cooperation between country members, and with the vision for peace in Europe after the hard years during the WW II, 50 years later there's a need for refreshment.

Europe today is not quite different from what it's always been: an area with smaller or bigger patches of nations, mixed ethnic origins and common history with sometimes opposite perceptions in neighbouring countries.

Once perceived as the centre of the known world, today the continent is struggling to remain on the top. With the dawn of the industrial revolution and the rise of the information technology revolution, the continent's problems have turned into only a small part of the huge information flows crossing the world.

After the "reunification" of Europe in 1989, the polarized two parts of the continent have officially become "one". And while the unification of the geographic definition of Europe has never happened - as Europe as a continent has always been one, it is mostly considered that the impact is mainly on the economical/political definition of Europe - or the European Union.

Facing the fact that Eastern European countries could be and already are members of the Union, the past divide of "us" and "them" and the belief that being "us" is better than being "them" is no longer a fact.

But till now there probably hasn't been much improvement in the mindset of the "old" members. I agree, major changes happen in the long run, but this may include changes both in the positive and the negative direction.

Being together means having identical values and a common vision. No common vision and values - no existence in the long run. Or at least no meaningful existence. Thrown in the backyard of the world by the BRIC or reaching a synergy growth - the choice is clear.

And the path…?

A random one

I'm sitting in my bed with the laptop on my knees, and in front of me there's the blank page for my next post on Blogger. The song which I'm listening to is "Sacral Nirvana" by Oliver Shanti. I've got a memory connected with this song. I remember the National Planning Conference 2006 at which I was a facilitator...and a MCVP elect. I remember the hills of the Rhodopi mountains, the smell of incense (resin) from the pine trees. I remember the intensity of the whole event.
I talked to Angel for a while only a few minutes ago and again memories returned from the conference. Like me explaining some financial stuff to him. That was one of the few moments I was an acting MCVPF.
Now it's "Song For Ancestors" by Juno Reactor and I slowly go into another moment of the past. As if the wind is blowing straight in my back and making me walk faster down the slope in Slatina. I shiver each time I hear it.
Now the rain is falling outside. The wind is blowing which makes the cables hanging from the top of the block to wave around and hit into the facade, producing creepy noise coming as if from within the wall. The moisture soaks through the panels the block is built of and they make straight greyish marks on the green walls of the room.
Soon the garbage will star being collected and the sound of the truck engine will interrupt my first dream for the night.
Let's go now.

The existence of a superior power

I know it's a wide topic. Or I'd rather say a topic without an end. But sometimes some things just come to my mind and cannot be
hold.
I was listening to the song "A Sea Named Solaris" by Vangelis and I remembered a book I've read a long time ago - "Solaris" by Stanislaw Lem. It's one of the classics of fantasy books. I've always loved such topics but only when questions of existance are implicated.

Certainly there is a superior power above us but our minds are not capable of feeling it and understanding it. Only narrow-minded ones would believe that human being is on the top of the pyramid. Although there are people who use their imagination, for most of us the only word we come up with is "supernatural". Why supernatural? To whom? To us, of course. But it's not "super", it's purely natural.

For some live forms it's natural to read minds and to materialize thoughts. It's us who can't and therefore don't believe in it.
What should happen so that we believe? Should we acquire supernatural force to finally believe? Would we ever have it? Is it within our unexplored 95% brain capacity? If yes, so what should we do to develop it?

The truth is that we are not ready yet. Great capabilities bear a great responsibility. If this is our path, then we are only just in the beginning of it. While there is no conscious desire for knowing better ourselves, we'll remain where we are now. And the "super"-natural will remain hidden for us.

There's a long way to go...

A place where 192 countries meet

Yes, it's a blog!
People from all over the world post about their countries. you can find all about history, culture and customs, cuisine, latest news, society, etc... I guess the blog is a new one and not all 192 countries have representatives. So if there's anyone interested just check out whether your country is waiting for one. As far as I can see, there's only one representative for a country permitted, so - sorry, Bulgarians, the place is taken (not by me, unfortunately!)

Here's the link:
http://topics192.blogspot.com/

Human memory

How is it possible human memory to be so selective? How is it possible some memories to appear on the surface and affect us deeply and others we want to recollect to be insufficient to fight with the firstly described ones?

Is this fact a part of another fact - that our actions and feelings are pre-defined and no matter what we do, what is "written down" under one's name will definitely happen?

It takes huge efforts to overcome memories and associations flooding one's mind when hears about or sees something familiar.

I only wonder why I keep having bad associations for one thing or another. Does this have something to do with the fact that very often I react more emotionally rather than rationally.

So the question is: what is the correlation between memory and emotions. Is it 0 or 1? Or perhaps somewhere in the middle?

What would have happened if...

...a single particle hadn't gone in the way it had during the creation of the Universe?

..."just" imagine???

...you will need to go through the process of imagining till the end of times...

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time...

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Lord Of The Dance - Celtic Dream

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Sofia

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Warsaw in March



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The Bulgarian song for Eurovision

A song which really deserves being the winner in the Bulgarian contest for the Eurovision finals in Finland.



More information about the performers Elitsa Todorova and Stoyan Yankulov:

http://www.elitsatodorova.com/
http://www.stoyankoulov.com/public/html/home/home.php

Purple and beautiful

Two things, one feeling. It was the 1st of March and while people made martenitza gifts to friends, relatives or just to acquaintances, I saw two things with slightly different colour.
The first one - in the garden in front of the office I work at. Quite unusual for that time of the year to see such flowers in their best shape, but not unusual when one knows about the extraordinary climate changes in the past three days. On the 28th of February it was snowing. On the 1st of March it was sunny. Today it's been gloomy and raining.
The sunsets in late winter can't compete with the summer ones, but this one is the most beautiful one I've ever seen.

Bulgaria vs. Europe

I've watched an animation "Italy vs. EU", but this one now is my new favourite. It's pure truth and I don't know whether to laugh or cry. : ) Anyways, here's the clip itself:

A photo story of two days in a row

This is how Sofia looked like yesterday morning, at about 8 a.m...

...and this is how it looked like at about 2 p.m....today!


I took a day off to visit just once my university classes and then I had the chance to make a small walk on the yellow pavement in the centre. It is the 28th of February and tomorrow, of course, is the 1st of March, which means that baba Marta will finally come! The Bulgarian martenitza tradition is in full power. One day before D-DAY many trees in Sofia wake up with these red-and-white ribbons. It is also a fruitful day for photographers like the guy on the right and of course me. :)


Hmm, I've thought the idea of tourist information by the phone is an riginal idea, but the added announcement gives much more added value to the project. It says something like: "Programmed criminal culture. Honourable people wanted for stabilizing..." but the rest is unreadable from the photo and I don't remember the whole text by heart.


Just on the opposite side of "Tsar Osvoboditel" blvd. is situated my favourite coffee shop - ONDA (A commercial break:) )


The palace/National art gallery beautiful as usual. Some lonely benches were waiting for the tired walkers to rest on them

The view from one of the lonely benches.

Look, the Christmas and New Year's Eve decorations are still there! I guess the president still wants to watch them - during the whole year!!! And the prime minister as well. And the monument of St. Sofia!!!


The underground line between St. Nedelya sq. and the Sofia University is still in construction. This is the promise for finishing the project: November 2007. It is written there. We'll see in November.

Some creatures have decided to sleep on the sidewalks.

A place looking much nicer than before.

This is the subway next to the Central Hali. Some time ago from both sides there were small stands with jewellry, souvenirs, etc. Now the only remainds of these times are the towers of tiles which used to prevent the stands from falling.


The Central Hali were full of people. Sofians go shopping late in the evening. And today it's one day before the 1st of March - which means many people joining the martenitza shoping rush.

And here's the proof for the upper thory: it takes quite a long time to choose the perfect martenitza...or just to snap all prices at all stands (at least 10 only inside the building) and to choose the best one (understand the balance between quality and price). From 0.30 lv (0.15 Euro) to 20 leva (10 Euro) - all sizes, models...but the coulours are predominantly red and white (of course). Currently the modern martenitza is tied on the wrist like a bracelet and one can see people with both wrists covered with 20+ martenitzas :-D

Reconstruction in progress even in the early evening. The last rays of light from west reflect on the flat surface of the newly-placed windows. The crane's giraffe-looking figure makes a shady reflection in the same windows. Light spreads out of two of them. One is open wide. I wonder what it was like for the people who were there to stay upstairs and hear the dim sounds of the trams, the cars and the people murmur.

Just a reminder for something good

Angel
can you see the sunshine
of a new today
and do you feel this way


That's what can be heard in "Be Angeled" by Jam & Spoon feat. Reamonn. Quite an old one, just started on my playlist. Something good to remember and to feel. :)

Two drivers for a change

Two things happened just in 30 minutes which made me make an unusual decision. I was walking on the sidewalk near my block when I came up with an idea for a change. I know so many people and I haven't seen or even chatted online with some of them for such a long time! And from friends many became just acquaintances. I want to change that. I want to keep them. I was thinking of the idea every day to talk to someone who I haven't seen for a long time, and try to make them smile.
When I got back home and turned on my laptop I played a CD with relatively old mp3's from my collection. "Stagger" by Underworld started and it remineded me of times which I've thought had almost faded away.
It's decided. It might sound silly, but I take it quite seriously. I already did it once and it feels great to chat with people I haven't seen for ages.
Say hello! :)

The PAI

It took me some time to think over the news for the new PAI. I am not anymore an active part of the organization, it feels quite strange to look from the distance on things. But yet I feel the whole excitement withing AIESEC these days and I am excited as well. Every news about somebody who has continued his or her path, and especially people with strong vision and determination for the future has always made me admire them.
I saw and heard her, and I felt the determination and energy in her. That's why I'm sure: it will be an unforgettable year in someone's life and the positive development of AIESEC will continue.
Good luck, Gabitza!

Every end is a new beginning

History repeats itself, every similar moment reminds me of the past times when a period of my life changed with another one. After the end there should be something - just like behind a fence there is another garden or even a field. And when I see some people come and go out of my life I keep reminding myself of my own experiences.

The good memories remain. The bad ones fade away. The new things are learned and the old ones perhaps forgotten.

The storm of the excitement of something new and the satisfaction of the past memories.

The silence remains only in the ears of those who stay. Until it's time for them to go away...

Vasil Levski - one of the true leaders of Bulgaria

On the 19th of February Bulgaria commemorates the death of Vasil Levski - one of the biggest national heroes, a person who has made a huge impact on the destiny of our nation and country. Born in 1837, he spent his life during the times of the Revival - when the Bulgarian people were still under the Ottoman rule and still were looking for their national identity lost through the long centuries without independence. He fought for, as he himself had written, "pure and sacred republic", for the liberation of Bulgaria. With his passion he created the most complex committee network around the Bulgarian lands and inspired the people to fight for their freedom.

"If I win, a whole nation wins; if I lose, I lose only myself."

He was lost, hanged in Sofia in 1873 at exactly same place where the monument stands nowadays. But nevetheless he didn't lose. He sacrificed his life for the freedom of our nation. All of us have won when he was born. Thanks to his life-work and devotion ot it, the desire for freedom grew more and more and finally triumphed with the Liberation on the 3th of March, 1878.

(photo of Vasil Levski - taken from http://www.vlevskimuseum-bg.org/)

All good things

Success is measured by the things we sacrifice to achieve it. What have I sacrificed and what I haven't? I lost me feeling of determination in my knowledge just in order to find it again. I lost my cosy microcommunity in order to find out that it's only me on whom depends what I lose and what I don't. "Loss" is a bad word because one can never now what expects us in the future and whether the lost will be regained. I have understood not only by words but this time by actions that it's all up to me to what extent I'll keep what I have. Interestingly, I haven't intended or made any specific efforts to do it, but I feel that what I've definitely kept are my values. I may not be the pefrect person, but I have always believed in goodness and honesty, in understanding and compassion. I feel I still have them. Then I'm definitely the person I have appeared to be, no matter the chaos that has been in my head for some time. Ironically, the player has just started "All Good Things" by Nelly Furtado. Why do all good things come to an end?... Flames to dust... ...because it's inevitable. But it's not a total loss. Even the memories of the good things are enough to keep us happy and far from any regrets. The good things are never lost when one remembers the lessons learnt. Life is not divided into separate periods, every moment is diffused into the next one, and so on, and on, and on...

The forgiveness day/Sirni Zagovezni

I have just understood that today...no, it's already yesterday...was Sirni Zagovezni, known also as the day of forgiveness ("Proshka"). In the Christian orthodox tradition it is the day after which starts the fasting before Easter. It is also a day connected with the pagan celebrations of the ending of the winter and beginning of the spring. Fires are lit and mummers dance in the streets to scare the devil.
It is also the day of forgiveness. Originally a custom for young members of the family to ask for forgiveness their parents and grandparents, nowadays it has turned into a day for everyone to ask their closest people to forgive them for anything they might have done wrong during the past year.
Although the day has passed, it is never late to ask for forgiveness. That's why I'm asking for forgiveness everyone who knows me and who feels that I have done a mistake or made them feel bad.
As I am a person who doesn't like anything which is done just because that's the tradition, and because I'm constantly trying to be a better person, I will make everything to fix anything I've done the wrong way.
So, please, forgive me, my family and friends. I'll do my best to deserve the forgiveness you'll hopefully give me.

:)

The inevitability of destiny

I keep my belief in a greater power above us or just something called destiny. I always try to find the reason for something to happen or not. But it's quite difficult. I believe in signs - when you meet someone or see something and you know they are connected somehow with you and you need to keep them close to you. Yes, but not all the time. I have met people who I've felt attached to - not romantically but spiritually. And so many times it has happened that I have lost them as friends. Or I have never made friends among such people.
What is wrong? Is it just because one has to meet people like these who would only make a huge impact on their personality and disappear just as they have appeared? To finish their mission of which they have no idea. Like characters who appear in only one epizode in order to make the plot complete and in the end of the epizode are gone, and in the next one they don't exist anymore?
The more I think the more I realize that it's not far from the truth. It's sad, isn't it? Isn't it unfair? Isn't it one of the inevitable conseqeuences of the happiness called life?...

Everything happens on purpose. But why do I have to reach this conclusion each time I do something wrong? Is it only a way of taking the blame off my shoulders?
I feel the emptiness of a person who has made a huge mistake.
I blamed you for my own imperfection. I've done it before - not to admit the truth about myself and find a "scapegoat" in somebody else's face.
You know me very well, I think. Compared to the past, despite my words remain hasty, it takes me much less time to figure out that it's me who's the guilty one. So you should have understood about this change in me.
I don't want to talk to you now. It's useless because I know that it won't change anything. I'd rather prove by actions that I'll do even better in future. And to think twice before speaking.
I hope that you'll understand why I said these things to you. Not because you'' know my excuses, but because you'll know the truth.

Dreams (Post #100)

Every person has got dreams of their own. The feeling of unhappiness because a dream hasn't come true remains until i s fulfilled.
No matter whether you do something or not in order to fulfill it, the feeling of emptiness and dissatisfaction is there.
And while most of the people believe that dreams don't ome true, that they are only part of our imagination, there are some people that act. They persist and make at least a pert of their dream a reality.
The constant feeling of dissatisfaction is he main driver through fulfillment of dreams.
History has shown that many people who believed that their dreams will come true and persisted to make them real suceeded. Such people have always been the driver of progress.

Each one of s has at least one dream in life. Some dreams are measurable, other are not. Some dreams can be seen, others - cannot.
But all dreams have one and the same characteristics: they are achievable. No matter to what extent and when...

Memories.

Early morning.
The rain is falling, making small puddles in the cracks between the yellow pavement in the Sofia centre.
Cars are making their way through the traffic jam while the traffic policeman navigates their movement.
The wind is blowing heavily and the umbrellas serve better for weather-vanes than for keeping the rain off people's heads.
Among these noises and chaos there is one place which is always silent at that time of the day. A place where so many decisive moments have passed that it is almost unbelievable why sounds of voices don't return as echoes from the corners of the room.
Time may pass but good memories never fade.

A return to the roots

Appreciation of beauty and excellence
Humor and playfulness
Kindness and generosity
Forgiveness and mercy
Spirituality, sense of purpose, and faith

These are my 5 biggest strenghts according to the VIA Signature Test which was done exactly 1 year ago by the MCPs around the world and by the MCEBs some time later.

I've already done it. I don't remember all 5 strengths then, but the top one was again "Appreciation of beauty and excellence".


Life is dynamic but some things never change.

My goal could be to strenghten the areas with the lowest "score". One year from now I will have to have found the right people to help me improve and find the ways how to use my biggest strengths to help other people in return.
This is probably my first serious goal since a long time.
If I succeed, then the 4 years spent in AIESEC and the things I've learnt before that in my life wouldn't have passed in vain.
If I fail, these 4 years wouldn't be in vain yet, because this would be the starting point of evaluation: what have I missed to do?

1 year.

Good for Czechs to oppose to US rocket bases

The news has just reached Bulgaria. The US wants rocket bases in the Czech Republic and Poland and has sent official requests to the governments of the two countries. They would serve as a shield against attacks from the Middle East.
The good news here is the reaction in The Czech Republic - many protests against the bases. Hopefully, the same is heard from Poland.
I truly understand the desire for control over the world which is rooted in the minds of the US officials. Europe doesn't need protection by opening rocket bases. Defense actions when there are no official threads is the worst strategy. The collective negative image of the "West" could be a good reason for attacks, but don't we make the things worse as we install expensive equipment? Don't we trigger the hatred by ourselves???

Kyrll - a hurricane with a Bulgarian name

If you're wondering what Bulgaria has given to the world, wonder no more. The latest news was that the hurricane that's been sweeping Europe for the last few days is named after a Bulgarian - Kyrill Genov! He's living in Germany and some friends decided to make a present for him and bought the right a storm to be named after him. And now the turn has come for his name to be used.
Thank God it wasn't name because of Western Europe's attitude to Bulgaria's accession to the EU. :)

End of the funny part now. Seriously, it's been a hard week for many countries in Europe. While the UK and Germany suffered huge damages and people lost their lives, here in Bulgaria the hurricane is just passing by "quietly" - mild wind and heavy rain. Compared to the 200 kmph winds several thousand kilometres away, this is nothing. I hope this is a big reminder of what expects us if we stop thinking about the present only and forget the long term effects of our activities. Europe is doing something, but the US, India and China...

More news here:
http://www.spiegel.de/international/0,1518,461003,00.html

Ivo - the path continues :)))

You can be anything you want to be. Just turn yourself into anything that you think that you could ever be. As if this text was written for you. :) Congratulations, Ivo! I'm so happy that AIESEC Bulgaria elected you as the new MCP!!! LOL , it's not even the news of the day - few days past since the elections. But you know, exams...sleep after that... :-D
I know that many people have already congratulated you, I also did it twice. And now - the third time. :))))
Many people have already told you together with their congratulations what you should consider in your term as MCP. They are most probably right to say that, but yet I think you you know the best what to do - just to follow your "inner voice" :)

Out of range

Hmmm I'd rather have received the other colourful message "No signal input". This time it was much more exciting. What would you do if you see such message on your PC screen? Yes, that's right - you'll throw the whole machine from the window... And no more Windows... :-D
If any other interesting messages arrive, I'll definitely post them here... for the future generations. :) Till then - hopefully my PC will keep out of MY range... Otherwise... You've read about the windows already... :)